What do I do ?

2011-04-17T22:26:51Z

Ok was diagnosed with CC in Dec 09 and had a radical hysterectomy in Jan 2010,since then I seem to be having one problem after another, CT scans and waiting for results, my last check up the nurse suggested that i see a councellor. What do I do ? I am a strong person who feels that I do not need to see a counsellor I feel embarassed that she even suggested this my husband thinks that this will help, but help what ?

Almost a year

2010-11-27T23:23:59Z

Not written a blog yet however have read many, well here goes !!! It;s been almost a year since I was told I had cervical cancer, and yes the feelings are still there and very very raw. Most would say that I have been lucky (just a radical hysterectomy) but mentally I'm screwed !!!

Last year I thought this is my last Xmas dinner, last year opening presents with my children BUT I am still here pretty normal to most but to me the day they mentioned CANCER is still in my head and will always be there. This year I will feel lucky to be here another year to feel well but secretly I will be feeling WHAT IF ??? Does that feeling ever leave you ? or do you live with it ?

Dont get me wrong not sad and realise I am VVVVVVV lucky hey what if I shout out loud at my sons Xmas play with pride I AM THERE !!! last year I wondered. Makes you realise what you have a wonderful husband and family grateful for that no matter what the future brings...........

Amost a year

What do I do ?

Almost a year