Part 1

2009-11-26T19:08:26Z

So Alice has nothing on me - Alan in Wonderland = that's how I feel. Having fallen down a rabbit hole and struggling to find my way out - meeting strange and not so nice characters along the way.

Thriving and happy - that's what my partner and I were until a massive bleed frommy bum ensured a few days in hospital. Then after scans etc I was diagnosed with stage 2 colorectal cancer. I know - shocking. Me - no surely not? 18 months of going to the doctor saying i had strange tummy, and throbbing in my groin -but no - nothing to worry about - mmmmmmm just a bit to worry about now!

My chemo started 6 weeks ago and I am just coming through the 3rd cycle. Quite a few side effects but the way I see it is that I can't do anything about it, I can't wish it wasn't happening to me and I can't change the fact so I have to go with the flow and accept what is happening to me and be as positive as I can that all the drugs and operations will work and I will be here for a few more decades. There are loads more shows i want to be in! Yes I am a an AMDRAM lovey and have "sung for my supper" for years.

I am emailing an update "newsletter" to keep my friends and family informed and updated. That way we don't have to always talk about it and can gossip about loads of other things and people!

One gripe - on the MacMillan website it states about the side effects of Oxaliplatin and 5fu - and it says - you may get some or none! Yeah right - the only one I didn't and haven't got is a problem with my hair! How very dare they! Oh I wait for the day the constant nausea stops, the flatulence and hiccups calms down and the tiredness lifts. Oh to be myself once again.

But we go into the weekend which is meant to be my good weekend - off to see a show - just hope I dont fall asleep which I am prone to do at the moment!

This Bloomin thing ain't gonna get me down - well at least I'll try not to let it!