A birhtday present ile never forget!!

come on cancer do your worst!!!!!

2011-06-01T00:16:06Z

Come on then cancer, do your worst!!

If you think you will get me with your nasty curse

I'll have the treatment, and the side effects too,

Mouth ulcers, sickness and sometimes cant poo!!

But if you think im weak, then please be prepared,

You have the wrong person if you think im scared!!

I'm going to beat you, you will NOT win!!

I will control YOU then throw you in the bin.

Friends who ignore me, or just disapear

They just cant handle it, I guess its just Fear,

They dont know what to say, so say norhing at all,

I am not contagious, its not like the flu,

If I make a joke, just join in, just be you.

Good friends are few, its true what they say,

They keep in touch day after day.

Family and friends to start with are sad,

Shocked that you have me because they know

you are BAD!!

I have a purpose, I HAVE to be Strong!!!!

To plan for the future, because I still feel Young

And for the rest of my life, I'm determined to have fun

angie xxxxx

more chemo than i thought!!

2011-05-31T23:49:58Z

Had chemo today, and saw my consultant oncologist too, was told that he was changing my target therapy and adding 3 more taxol, should have had 3 more to go after todays....... was looking forward to getting the last three over, now have six..... so operation will be delayed by a month, so my rads will be delayed as i am having four weeks of rads after my operation.

Good news is though is the tumour is decreasing even more and my onc is very pleased with that. Im feeling positive again after a couple of weeks of feeling very low and tearful (not like me at all), I know triple negative breast cancer is more difficult to treat but ive always thought positively, until i overheard someone saying about their breast cancer, they said *thank god its not triple negative* and it started me thinking, got my self scared thinking I was going to die, had lots of scenarios in my head of not being here for my girls (two daughters, two grandaughters).

Ive pulled myself back up again though and Im not giving up, gonna laugh my way better and see off this cancer with corny jokes lol .

Doing kung fu kicks around the room helps me when im frustrated lol

thankyou for my friends who have messaged me and helped me so much....... you know your names xxxhugsxxxx

angie xx

one for all........ and all for one

2011-05-25T00:31:10Z

So many new people which is sad. I wish none of us were on here. I really do. But since we do have this dreadfull illness, or are caring for a loved on who has it, then this is a great place .Especially in those early days when your diagnosis is what shocks you awake, nags at your mind when you're needing sleep and dominates most moments of your day. To be able to come to a site like this, and to share some talk, some tears, some laughs, some fears. You can walk alone but why? When you can come on here and have someone to hold your hand. I dont know what I would have done without this site, I have had good advice, made friends, put my fears aside and laughed, I am much more positive now and that reflects on my family, also I decided that im not going to let the fear of cancer take away my love of life xx