Stop this ride....I want to get off !!!

  • Two and a half years on.

    Just a quick up date.

    Well it’s been two and a half years now and so far so good.  A lot has happened, I now have three beautiful grandchildren, two boys and a girl, we sold our business and moved close to one of our daughters so lots of baby minding going on, keeping me busy. But what a blessing to be able to do that. 

    Life is good and I am extremely grateful, reading back on my blog it seems like a long long time…

  • The calm after the storm.

    Well today has been a much better day, it really wouldn’t have taken much for that to happen though. Yesterday was one of those days that I don’t think I could take too many of without completely breaking down. 

    Last night I spent quite a while writing hubby a letter and I gave it to him this morning, it was a very long letter explaining how I felt, I put everything down in detail, I wrote it when I was very tired…

  • Perfect storm.

    Yesterday was a bad day. One of the worst in the last year. I have no idea why, I suppose a perfect storm of lots of little things all gathering together hitting me all at once. 

    Maybe a couple of years ago I would have coped and just moved on, but yesterday I came to a stop. A great big stop. The help and support of one special friend I made on here on this site got me through the day. I will remember her help and…

  • Mixed up...

    Well I’ve been awake for an hour after only two hours sleep so decided to have a little blog session and what a lovely surprise I got when I read the lovely comments under my last blog post, it appears that I’m not the only one who feels the way I do. Thank you lovely ladies for your kind words they meant a lot, they really did.

    I’ve had a very trying couple of days BUT I did have a heart to heart with my husband and…

  • Stop pretending.

    Well, I’m here again. I find  myself wide awake after three hours sleep and decided to go back to my faithful old blog. The one where I poured my heart out. 

    I still can’t read it back but this blog gave me some sort of release when I was diagnosed, when I couldn’t talk to my family, when I didn’t want to upset them, so I am back because although I didn’t want to carry on with my blog when my treatment finished…