Finishing

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Finishing

Finished work today

For a month

Or two

Or six

Or a year

Or forever

Return date unknown

 

Treatment starts Monday

Surgery - tick

Radiotherapy - tick

More Surgery - ? – Unknown

More radiotherapy - ? - Unknown

Chemotherapy - ? - Unknown

Hormone therapy - ? - Unknown

So many unknowns

 

I will be different

Can’t stop the change

Can’t know the unknowns

No point in the fear

Yet it remains

Sometimes a tiny, insignificant fleeting thought

Sometimes a sobbing nightmare 

But never screaming, never shouting

 

‘The look’ is within me and I am ‘the look’

And that is okay;

The empathy and sympathy and fear of others, it comes from a place of care and love

I am not so alone now

A part of me is finishing

A part of me is starting

I am learning to embrace ‘the look’

I will learn to embrace the unknowns

 

Still scared though

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