Introducing Justin

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Justin is my lump he is only 21mm when last measured but his impact in my life is immense. How can something so small be so big?

Justin is an invasive ductal brest cancer (grade 3) and is HER2 positive he made his appearance one evening under my right arm, its one of those moments where denial kicks in and you are sure if wont be there in the morning....  

But it is and the odds are its a cyst, but somehow you just know, you know that its not.

So the doctor was visited (surprisingly managing to get an appointment at the first attempt)

10 days laters Justin was photographed, measured and shot (well that was what the biopsy felt like to me) and the waiting began.....

Did i wish he would just go away? Yes.. did he? No of course not, didnt stop me hoping, or wishing it was a nightmare and that i would wake up and he would no longer be invading me.

And then came the day Justins true colours were displayed - Monday 17th July.
Cancer
Not a big word, 6 letters, two of which are the same so really only 5 little letters.... but so much changes when that word is spoken, the world start spinning faster, but you stop, you go deaf, you cant hear what is being said just that word getting louder and louder in your head

And then because of Justin I am opened up to a whole new language, MRI, trasuzumab, FEC....  a language i dont want to speak, Justins language.

Justin has only been in my life for 5 weeks, but i dont like him very much....

I dont know who will be reading this if anyone, ive never blogged before, but i need to share Justin because he is in my head and not just my body and somehow i need to try and get him out of there because the chemo wont do that.


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