8 weeks ago our world fell apart, mum was diagnosed with a squamos non small cell lung cancer, about the size of a mobile phone, in the pleural part of her left lung....3 months prior she sarted losing weight, suffering from fatigue etc, in quite severe pain......I cant describe how I felt (well not just me but the whole family), we felt, in despair, disbelief, shock, anger etc, every emotion possible, drifting on a cloud of surreallity (dont know if thats a real word) but who cares, it didnt seem like a real world either.........Although the tumor was in=operable, not cureable, only treatable, within 2 weeks she was in for 5 days of intense Radiotherapy, the aim, to shrink the tumor as much as possible, they had direct access to the tumor without damaging (too much) any surrounding tissues, so they blasted the beeping sod, from every angle possible......that was 6 weeks ago, the treatment absolutely knocked mum for 6, she has been so ill, but so brave.......
So she had a scan 2 weeks ago, today we went for the results, and sure enough, the sod has been blasted to smitherines........it hasnt gone totally, it never will, but for the time being its under control, stopped in its tracks, and no evidence that it has spread any further than her lung.....it affected a couple of ribs and a few nodes, that part of her lung will never work again, but thats liveable with.........
After 2 months of living with an unknown prognosis, the difference between finding out when you will die as opposed to having a shpt as as normal a life for as long possible is such a relief..........never ever have I seen my mum cry in that way, I have seen her upset, but she always holds back, today she couldnt, we got in the car and she just let go, weeks of pent up emotion came streaming out, I have goosebumps now just thinking about the relief she must have felt, relief for all of us, that maybe now.......instead of SUFFERING from cancer, we are LIVING with it.......
Psychologically the effects have been astounding, mum even checked the weather forecast today (something she used to do everyday as she was always out and about) and shes even talking about having a short trip to the coast this weekend, way to go mum x
The Oncologist said, chemo is still an option as a precautionary measure, but she said go and enjoy your summer, get yourself fit and come back in 6 weeks to discuss, the medical care and support has been outstanding, cannot fault in any way, and I want to thank them deeply from the bottom of my heart..........
Thank you to everyone I have met on here, you have all been amazing, such selfless and understanding people, you are all AMAZING!!!!!!!
Take care, much love and hugzzzzz to you all xxxxxxxx
