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Maureen was 52 when she was diagnosed with Stage 3a breast cancer. She lives in south west London, is married, has two teenage sons, and works as an editor.
When the consultant breast surgeon greeted me at my most recent appointment with the words, "You look like a wreck", I was more than a little confused. It seemed completely out of character and was, I thought, downright rude. More importantly, though, I was feeling really well physically and just couldn't fathom why he'd say such a thing.
I'm fitter and healthier than I've been in years. Since finishing pretty gruelling treatment for breast cancer nearly seven months ago, I've been eating healthily, I've cut down on my alcohol consumption, and I'm exercising loads. As 53-year-old women go - never mind one who's finished cancer treatment - I think I'm doing pretty well.
"A wreck?" I said, trying not to sound put out. "But I feel great."
"Not a wreck," the consultant said, amused that I could think he'd say such a thing. "A rake! You're fading away."
I laughed at the misunderstanding and reassured the doctor that I was not in fact fading away. Since my diagnosis in July 2015, I have, however, lost the six, seven or eight kilos that I'd put on gradually over the past decade. His comment illustrates just how much I've taken on board the recommendations for healthy living that you're advised to follow when you finish cancer treatment. Doing certain things, you're told, reduces the risk of your cancer coming back. I'm at high risk of recurrence, so it's perhaps not surprising that I'm trying to do everything I can to lessen that risk.
Initially I was ambivalent about the lifestyle changes I was making. I felt they were driven by fear of recurrence rather than by a genuine desire for change. But now I'm positively enjoying being fitter and healthier than I was pre-diagnosis.
I'm loving the extra exercise. I've always been sporty - tennis and cycling have been part of my life for years - but for the first time in my life I'm enjoying running. I've even joined a local running club.
I invariably feel better after exercise. During treatment itself, on more than one occasion, I felt it was my saviour. There were days when I'd be feeling tired and low and I'd force myself to cycle to the hospital or clinic appointment rather than drive. During radiotherapy I challenged myself to cycle to more sessions than I drove to. It wasn't always easy, but I won - just! No matter how I felt when I left the house, I always felt better by the time I got to my destination.
When I did my first local 5K Parkrun in mid-April six weeks after finishing radiotherapy, I was both relieved and elated. Around 300 people did the same run that morning. I was amongst the slowest. Running the same route at the same time as all these other people, however - and knowing thousands of others were doing exactly the same thing in Parkruns up and down the country - in some way made me feel I was back in the real world after having been in some sort of parallel universe since I was diagnosed in July 2015.
I had Stage 3a cancer in my right breast and went through six-and-a-half months of treatment that comprised eight sessions of chemotherapy, a mastectomy with immediate own-tissue reconstruction, lymph node clearance and 16 sessions of radiotherapy. It takes a long time to recover from that kind of treatment. The chemotherapy-induced peripheral neuropathy that I had in my feet is pretty much gone, but I still get the odd niggle, especially when I run (ironically). My upper arm on the operated side is still numb and there's a feeling of discomfort in my chest and armpit that never quite seems to go away. There's a little swelling in and around the operated area that's been diagnosed as lymphoedema. Some days even now, I can feel really fatigued and have to take things easy. I'm on letrozole anti-hormone therapy and if I stay sitting for too long I feel my joints stiffening up. Hot flushes appear out of nowhere. I've developed trigger thumb, a painful and annoying condition that can be caused by low oestrogen levels, which is precisely what letrozole is designed to achieve.
There's no doubt that exercise helped and is helping me deal with both the physical and emotional effects of having had breast cancer. Everyone has their own way of coping, and exercise, it seems, is mine. There's no downside as far as I can tell. I'm aware that what is a huge challenge for some is a breeze for others and vice versa. It's about knowing what's right for you and about setting achievable goals and not being overambitious. Exercising with friends or in a group can help.
For me, exercising is empowering. I'm fitter, I'm healthier, and over the past few months I've met some great new people. On the recurrence front, I know there's no guarantee my cancer won't come back. Exercising is a massive help in keeping in check my fear that it might.
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