Bertiebassett 6th Jan 2010

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Tomorrow will be our 29th wedding anniversary I remember the day as if it were yesterday. We had only known each other for 3 months we were skint but happy. Back then 29 years seemed like a lifetime away

Now, well what now. That lifetime has all but gone for Bert, he sleeps almost all the time, when he is awake he is having more and more panic attacks. We will spend the afternoon at the clinic and by the time we get back he will be exhausted and go straight to bed.

We have not always had good times there have been bad as well. There were days when all in the garden was not rosy, What I would not give to have some of them back again even the bad days.

It took me 25 years to persuade him to go abroad and we have been 3 times

We had great plans for our 30th trying to decide which country we would like to visit. But that is all we have left. Sorry its all doom and gloom tonight.

Love Teri

 

 

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Teri,

    Just hold onto those good memories on these dark days.  

    ((( big hugs)))

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Teri

    I read your blog last night and really didn't know what to say. I hope with all my heart that your special day today will be a good day for you both.

    Sending you lots of hugs and thinking of you

    Angela xx

  • Like Angela not sure what words are appropriate but hope you have a day that can bring at least one smile to your face and that the happy thoughts stay strong.

    best wishes to you both especially today

    john x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Thinking about you as always - hopefully the good memeories you have will bring you through.  Perhaps it is for the best that Bert is able to sleep most of the time although very difficult for you I know.

    kindest thoughts to you.

    Christine xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    I am so very very sorry. I know exactly what you are going through I went through the same thing 4 years ago, we were married 16 years not so very long in my mind. Like Bert my husband slept the last days of his life away, I felt so helpless. Whilst he was here I wanted him to stay no matter what! When he went I realised how awful the past few weeks had been and to be truthful I was relieved it was over. My darling wasn't suffering anymore. I didn't care about myself, how I would miss him, I still do very much 4 years later. Only now I remember those good times you talk about as well as the bad. I feel him with me during my own battle with this awful desease. I know he saved my life at the beginning of my illness. What I am trying to say is that our loved ones never really leave us, they always remain in our hearts and in our memories. What I would say to you is try to feel every minute of Bert no matter if he is asleep he is still here with you. Try to value every second he is still here. Life is a b..ch but we can only live it and value our loved ones as best as we can. I am thinking of you and feeling with you. Love Julie XXXX