One year after treatment and its amazing how far I have come ..I look at pictures of how I looked during and after treatment and its so hard to believe that have managed to come this far ..getting through my cancer on my left tonsil and the base of my toungue and soft pallete and tumer in neck and one lymph node involvement ..left me not known who I was any more I lost so much of the person who was me ..I had two louts of 24hour chemo for 5 days the RT for 6 weeks and i only managd one more chemo as they said my body could not cope with another one ...my wonderful new husband came over fro Canada to look after me through my ttreatment and nevert left my side ..when I was allowed home ..I was awful sick and could not feed properly during the night so my husband was a tower of strength and never left my side ..I was then admitted in the monklands hospital for 3 more weeks to see if they could get the sickness to settle ...think are much better now I can eat certain food not back to normal yet but working as near to it as i can get ..love my soups and chicken chaucceur dinners at night ...and just try and get through the day with bits and pieces ..and milky drinks

#I still worry everyday that the cancer will come back ..dont want to live like that but dont know how to stop ...my husband Ken has paid oour fee for our paperwork to see if he can be allowed to come live here in Scotland with me just waiting on his biometrics getting dome and then we can send them off in the hope that they will look on us as compassionate grounds ..hope my good healt continues to grow and my dry mouth gets better and i get to eat a little more but for now i am very happy to be here ..Love Jan

Hello Jan.   Well done on reaching your year's ' anniversary ' as it were, it's good to see you posting back here after all your treatment. Yes, we do look back over it all and sometimes I wonder how I got through it all ...... and I know that you have had many struggles along the way, too. But with help and support you have got there and should be proud of yourself, as I am sure that Ken certainly is.

I understand how you feel about the cancer coming back ...... I think that everyone has those fears, but we just have to keep positive and have faith in the surgeons and medical teams who looked after us. It takes time for our bodies to recover and re-adjust to everything that has been thrown at them, so try and be patient a while longer, Jan. Sometimes we want to run before we can walk ( I am certainly guilty there ! ) but improvements tend to creep up on us so we don't notice them straight away.

Food-wise it may also take a while ....... I have found the soft range menu from Wiltshire farm Foods excellent as it enables me to have a much better variety in my limited diet. It's finding out what works for you really and trying different things when you feel ready ...... but not getting upset if it doesn't work. So I wish you further recovery and hope that Ken is successful in getting back home to you - take care and Bless, Jan.

Love, Joycee xxx