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Appointment at 10 today, delayed by a mix up last week and for some reason that has made me more anxious. More time to think i suppose! We know it is going to be radiotherapy and chemo, but i think my daughter is hoping for a miracle and she'll have no more treatment. I spoke to her nurse yesterday who said it will be both, all i'm hoping for is that nothing else was found that we don't know about. Not that impressed with her nurse to be honest, she seemed lovely to start with but i get the impression i'm annoying her when i ring up for advice. I've only done it twice in six weeks!! Probably just paranoia, i feel very low at the minute, am comfort eating and having horrible dreams. Last night i dreamt that a new lump had popped up on my head and would mean treatment for me too, not surprising when you realise that not only is my daughter going through a crap time but so is my partner who is also have chemo at the moment. Makes you wonder who is next..hopefully not either of my two other children. Sorry to be so negative, just finding it hard to stay positive with all this going on. I'm in the middle of doing a degree too, was going to give it up a few weeks ago as i just couldn't concentrate at all, but since i was so close to the end of this module i felt i should try to finish it. I can't remember things i read two minutes ago, and it all seems so trivial now. I have to think about the long term, my daughter will recover from this, she is lucky compared to some. And my partner, although cagey about his cancer seems fine and upbeat. I love them both so much and can't wait for 'normality' to resume, whatever that is!! :)
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