really sorry to hear that. :-(
Don't dwell on the over drinking, I have done it as well. Have you stopped now?
People keep telling me to enjoy what time I do have left with my Dad, I know that is hard, but I think people are right.
We can do our grieving when they are gone, so it's best to make the most of the time we have left with them.
Do you have anyone else around you?
It sounds to me like you need to see your own GP, perhaps to get some therapy or medication.
Are you your Dads main carer?
I am my Dads, my Mum died last year and my Sister a few years back, and I am single. I'd be nowhere without medication I am sad to say.
It's a case of whatever gets us through this stage I think.
My heart goes out to you, having lost my mum to this type of cancer, it took over so quickly, one minute she was fine, not a care in the world, then a huge abdominal pain, then 5 weeks later we lost her! She was young for her age, fit and healthy and we felt like we had been hit by a bus and run over with a steamroller!!!
Go and stay with your dad, don't give work a second thought. "Enjoy what time you have" is incredibly hard but just spend as much time as you can and be there for him.
Keep posting / reading, there is a lot of support in here
I am glad that you have some time off work - this should give you some space to think.
It's best you don't dwell on things, maybe find something to do.
Yes, I have bad dreams... well, more bad day dreams for me I think. I suspect its normal, the brain dealing with things.
Did the Dr not consider anti depressants ?
Oh Mark, I so know this feeling! Its a foggy nightmare at the best of times, sending you a hug xx
Mark 1234 - dont beat yourself up about drinking - it doesnt help its true - but its an understandable coping mechanism - i tried it when my hubbie was first diagnosed - just made me feel cr@ppier. you are stronger than you know because you have no choice but to be.This site does help if you want to get things off your chest- I felt hesitant initially about expressing some of my thoughts but there is no judgement on here just support. wishing you well
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