Ah Sunflower I am so sorry you now find your self joining the group,if I could take the pain away I would, because I know how it feels. It won't seem real you yet, Have as much support round you as you can, Family, Friends,and don't think about any thing at the moment, if you can just rest and you will get through this, and come on here as much as you need to, any time day or night, Sending Hugs Carole Xx