Dear Leslar, I have been following the discussion through email on my phone during this last week and am sorry that I haven't been able to be involved more, as I have been sharing your journey as my own father was going through the same thing and it was such a support just to read your messages and other peoples on here. Sadly my dad died on Monday afternoon, but I know he is at peace now.... I am finding this time after very hard as every now and then I keep getting flashes of the journey we have all been on - it is such a terrible illness. My love and support are with you - stay strong. xxxxx

thank you joanne,

seems sometimes that the whole world is battling cancer; too many families ripped apart by what you rightly describe as a terrible illness.

I'm sorry to hear the sad news about your father. The journey is so traumatic, you have voiced what I am dreading, that when it is all over and Rog is at peace, I will be haunted by the terrible experiences we have suffered over the past two and a half years. 

He fights on, enough morphine and sedatives to fell a herd of elephants coursing through his veins, unconscious, but still able to hear, so they tell me. My 19 stone man is a gaunt shell, his ribs horribly visible under the sheet.

His first grandchild was born yesterday. I told him all about it, but he didn't react.

Mitch's exams finish monday. Not really important in the scheme of things, but can Rog hold on that long?

Life is unreal.

I hope that you slowly find the peace to cope with your loss, and begin to remember the good times with your dad,

Love, Leslar xxx

Leslar - thinking of you, Roger and Mitch. J x

I just wanted to say your words are really helping me at the moment. You are amazing and a true inspiration to me. Take care xxxxx

Roger died early this morning.

No more pain and suffering.

Rest in peace my darling.

Leslar xxx

My thoughts, hugs and love go out to you, Mitch and the rest of your family at this sad time. Be there for each other and know that Roger suffers no longer.

xxxx ((((()))))

Dear Leslar,

I know it was inevitable but it's still dreadful for you and your son. I am so sorry. I'm not surprised you're numb. You'll be on autopilot for a while, I guess, as you must be exhausted after such a long hard struggle.

With love , minima x x x

Leslar 

,so sorry for your loss my thoughts are with you & your family at this sad time  xx