About the Author

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My name is Eamonn. I am a husband to a surprisingly tolerant wife, and father to a five year old girl and seven year old boy. We live a very nice life in Harpenden near London. I also happen to be terminally ill.

In January 2012 I was diagnosed with stage III pleural mesothelioma. That is the kind of cancer you get around the lungs after exposure from asbestos. Normally it manifests in retired men with a history in the building trade, not forty year old desk jockeys, so to say it was a bit out of the blue is an understatement.

At this time, my condition is one that can be treated but not cured. There are always trials of new medications, treatments and procedures, but these can be even more dangerous than the cancer, so other than well established chemo and radiotherapy, I have not pushed for any medical Hail Marys.

The normal mean life expectancy for my condition at diagnosis was a year, but more than two years later I’m still here feeling relatively physically healthy. My outlier position on the statistical graph, and responsiveness to chemotherapy has no doubt helped in this regard, but the capricious nature of cancer wards against complacency.

You can read more about my story with cancer and terminal diagnosis in my articles, ‘Skyfall‘ and ‘The Good Delusion’.

This inconvenience has brought the realities of life into sharp relief and my website, www.whothehelldoeshethinkheis.com is the forum in which I have decided to release these thoughts before shuffling this mortal coil. They are honest and therefore sometimes may seem uncompromising. Shouldn’t they always be?

If you think that’s probably an overstatement, you may want to stop reading now. Of course we both know you won’t, but you might want to read a bit about the articles before embarking on our little intellectual journey together.

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Eamonn, or should I say A-Man?!

    Thanks for your comment on my blog and pointing me to "The Good Delusion", and yes, I did read it all! You have a great attitude to your cancer, but you didn't need me to tell you that.

    I don't how far you got with mine (I know I do go on a bit) but this entry explains how I chose the title.

    Comics, Star Wars, Lego - we seem to share a lot of the same interests. Lego is very close to my heart right now as my fella has just gone to work for TT Games. Go and see the Lego Movie f you haven't already. I guarantee you won't be able to get "Everything is Awesome" out of your head. (Checks - yep, 2 weeks later and it's STILL there...)

    Finally, the other manta to Yoda's, borrowed from Dune, of course 

    “I must not fear. 
    Fear is the mind-killer. 
    Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. 
    I will face my fear. 
    I will permit it to pass over me and through me. 
    And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. 
    Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. 
    Only I will remain.”

    TTFN

    Mistress Bacon. ^_-


  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Mistress Bacon,

    Well I definitely think we have the beginnings of a very eclectic superhero team. And just as long as you keep passing round those bacon sarnies, I'm in. And Ketchup Girl too, the more the merrier. 

    I'm thinking we might be a bit more Kick Ass 2 than X-Men though:-)  I don't know how you are feeling today, but I am a bit tired so maybe we should limit our crime fighting to a game of Cluedo or something?

    And yes, having a five and a seven year old, so I was always going to go to the Lego movie, but as it turns out it was one of the few times when I actually tried to stay awake through one of the kids films, but just couldn't manage it due to the fatigue. I'm going to secretly go during the week on my own again, but I know I will spend the the rest of my life with that bloody song in my head! I've just realised though I think I might look a bit strange turning up at a cinema (41 year old man on his own) going to a kids film!

    Dune (the original anyway) one of my favourite books of all time, but you can't tell me you were happy about the De Laurentiis film version...(starts geek flamewar!)

    Eamonn