niccy's blog

Well as the new year looms so does the emotion and drama of our first chance at having a baby. Following my hysterectomy for cervical cancer we thought all was lost with having our own family but friendship has shone down on us and we are about to embark on a truely amazing journey with our friend being a surrogate mum for us.

I start the IVF drugs tomorrow and I have no idea what the future holds for me and my husband…

I'm home after a hysterectomy. They couldnt save my fertility but I am glad now that they have hopefully removed all the cancer. I get my results of the lymph nodes and margins on Friday and get to have my catheter out! It was pretty awful surgery (key hole is great in the long run but the short term wind pain if awful). I am not sure how I got through the 1st 24 hrs but I did and I was allowed home after 48 hrs (stubborness…

I've just had my MRI, Chest X-Ray and Bloods and now I am waiting again. Its this bit that is more exhausting than anything else. I just want to know what is going to happen. Will I have my fertility saved or won't I? I feel scared when I am positive, guilty when I forget, angry when I remember and lonely when I think. Everyone has told me to stay positive and I know they are right but it's hard when your future happiness…