Hello its me!

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I have never blogged before and am not very computer literate(hence no picture).Maybe the number 1 son will add one for me later...... I have checked out some other entries and everyone seems to have been through much more and be so much braver and more jolly than me.I am currently ok after breast cancer four and a half years ago.I suppose I just want to be in contact with people who understand the worry in the background that it will return and at the back of that is fear of death I suppose although I dont generally think death is anything to fear,as I always say if there is god that would be great and if there isnt-well we wont know about it. Hope this isnt too dark or deep .Im not even sure if i am putting it in the right place which is really sad when you consider I work on a computer 5 days a week. Anyway it is a lovely day and also my day off so I am going to shower and go to town for some hairdye.
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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    wishing you all well-love moy

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Just wanted to say hello and welcome.

    The people on here are great and very supportive.

    Sometimes it is just lovely to be able to put your thoughts in writing on here.... always makes me feel better anyway.

    Take care

    Julie x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hello there! read your comment with interest and can understand how you feel, having had breast cancer myself, coming up to four years ago. Lost my hubby to bowel cancer in late 2004 and was diagnosed with bc a year later. I had to get through it myself and somehow did,accepted it and got on with it! I know how you feel about being afraid of the future. I am reluctant to plan too much ahead, book holidays and make long term decisions. My health is up and down, some good periods and then bad days, I get paranoid before every check up. They are half yearly now, with a yearly mammogram, coming up at the end of this year. Any health symptoms that come up, like back ache or whatever, one wonders if it could be something sinister!!! Do you have the same problem ?I have always said, I will accept whatever comes, but would be very frightened if it came back again. Life goes on, I dont talk about this apart from on this Site. Have met some lovely people on here, which is a help,especially as I live abroad. I wish you all the very best, should you be interested I would like to hear from you. Kindest regards from Janalena (Pam)

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Moy, I am in the same position as you.  I am currently five and a half years past diagnosis and I sitll have that constant worry that every ache and pain is the cancer returning.  I am always poking and prodding for lumps and bumps, and not just in my breast.  Please believe me when I say you are not alone,  I have friends who are in the same boat.  I suppose the fact that you have had cancer never leaves you and is always at the back of your mind.  I mentioned this to my GP one time and she said every cancer patient she had known has the same worries.

    You will get plenty of support on this site and you can send me a PM if you like and we can compare notes lol.  Best wishes, Christine xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi,

    It's natural to worry. Once this thing has touched your life I don't think the fear ever really goes away. But you seem quite well adjusted to me. Keep on with the hair dye, my love and to hell with it!

    Best wishes, Shelagh