The beginning of the end

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Well 23rd dec 2011 was the day my world was turned upside down. Friday 23rd December was the day I was told that people with cancer as advanced as mine are dead within 6 months and most of the rest within 12 months. Happy Fucking Christmas to you too!!! So we did what anyone who has just been told that this may be your last Christmas and went to burger king. The last lot of chemo hadn't worked as well as quiet hoped and the cancer has spread blocking a tube to my kidney and is pushing against the lower part of my spine and has infected my lymph nodes in my stomach. I'm to have radiotherapy once which is only given for palative pain releif. Had a beautiful Christmas with friends and family. But I'm in a lot of pain with my leg and knee. The tumour is pushing Against a nerve which gives me siatica. But I've also got a really sore knee which is bei g investigated - appointment with othorpedic next week to determin of its cancer related or not. My knee is really getting Me down cause its effecting my mobility apart from that I feel ok. So what goes through your head when your told your going to die a lot sooner than you planned. Well I'm probably still in shock m initial thought is well ill be one of the small percent who live longer than a year. Then I worry about the people I'll leave behind. The most important thing is making sure I enjoy the time I have left with the people who matter. So plans are in place to move the wedding forward as we speak so watch this space.
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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    It's absolute crap isn't it? I know how you feel, mind you I suppose I should be dead now because I wasn't even given 6 months, just "months"?????? at the end of September 2011. Your emotions will be up and down and all over the place. I can't offer any comfort but I'm here to be ranted at if you need to.

  • hi sorry to hear your xmas was spoilt but thought I would share over 10yrs ago a friends partner was given 2 months with a rare cancer, he lived for five and a half years so hang in and prove them wrong.

    best wishes   john

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    I guess there aren't any words that will make you feel any better about your prognosis, but, like John says, there are loads of stories of hope out there where people have beaten the odds and lived a lot longer than expected. Please try to hold onto that hope.

    Thinking of you and your loved ones.

    Christine xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Joan W

    Sorry you had such bad news, but as others have said poeple do survive a lot longer than told .

    My husband was told 6months at most that was April2009 he was sent to palitive care for a year and because he was still with us after that they looked at him again he had scans and tests we got no explanation they started him on chemo in October 2010 all we were told was that he was still terminal.

    We didnt ask any questions because he didnt want to know.He is very positive we have been on lots of hols played golf do lots of walking and try to carry on as normal it has worked for us so far.So dont give in you could have years yet dont waste them I know it's not easy.

    Good Luck

    Joan

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    So sorry to hear your news. BUT..... I was diagnosed in May 2008, lots of chemo's inbetween had two very good years, just went on holidays etc...Told terminal in May 2010, still here still fighting,had a good 2011, I made it to sixty, with a big party and more hols.Back on chemo again..Dec 2011,. so keep fighting and looking for options of chemo.