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Thanks for all your PMs and your replies on my last blog. I have finally decided not to take anymore rubbish from any one especially Kev and he knows it, he knows where the front door is, if I have to do this alone I can and I will. I am a strong person but like every other adult there is a child within me wanting to be loved, cut me and I bleed the same as anyone else, and yes I do cry, bloody hell, I have cried buckets over the last two and a half years. Maybe Kev is scared, his dad treated his mother like this when she was diagnosed and she died within two weeks and he regreted it and he died a year later, surely a person would learn from that. It is not the quantity but the quality of life that counts and we could have the best few years of our lives right now, I could even out live him, because the amount he drinks and smokes and being diabetic. Yes I don't have a set time limit on meeting my maker, it could be any time but life is for living and that is what I have to do with him or not. When I am well, he is ok but when I am not it is like I should have a bell around my neck, shouting 'unclean'. I learnt from a very young age that a smile, a touch can make all the difference to a person, I learnt that from nursing my dad at the age of 10 until 12 when he died and saw and did things that no child should ever see and do and that is the reason I fight this so hard, I hate cancer with a passion, it is deep rooted with me but even the Bird is entitled to some happiness now and not to be treated like this. Blimey, that is masterfull!!!!!! Sorry guys, but this is what happens when I get angry it makes me even stronger and more pig headed!!!!!!
I am going to the Leicester Fiesta so I should have calmed down by then and be my usual crazy happy go lucky self, so look out Leicester. I love life and I love laughter and I am not dying of cancer, I am living with it. Love and hugs to those who want them as usual......Carol x PS I have to go now coz I am making Bramble Jelly YUM!!!
Good for you Carol, you enjoy yourself. Hope you have a great time at Leicester...and yum yum to the jelly mmmmm xx
Well said that woman.
Love ya,
Debs xx
Course you will be fine carol......
it comes ndown to one thing doesnt it....
we either laugh.....or we cry and we sure arent going to cry IF we can help it..
sometimes you can feel more lonelly living with someone , then when you live on your own..
you go to leicester if you can i am sure you will get lots of hugs and cuddles from lots of people who think the world of you....
what ever your situation you will NEVER be alone carol when you have so many people who love you on here...
i admire you loads because when you come to each cross road in life you allways make the right turning and pick the right way to be...
one day i would love to meet you carol and give you a hug....
here is a huge one for now
>>>>HUG<<<<
i will ask my friend linda j who is going to leicester to give you a hug from me...
take care of yourself carol..
YOU CAN AND YOU WILL DO IT..
xxx
HELL HAVE NO FURY LIKE A WOMANS CORNS!!!!! yes I did mean corns but HELL HAVE NO FURY LIKE KEZZERBIRD BEING P***ED OFF!!!!!!!! ( you would never guess that, would you?)
Graeme we will meet chic, I want to know what you have got that makes all these strange women pm you offering you Luvvvvvvvvvvvvvv!!!!!! xx
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im the only one in the family that looked like my dad....
hugs from everyone on here to you....xxx
I once had a boyfriend with a big nose, ohhhhh I do miss him LOL XXXX
Kezzer, you rock!!! Really looking forward to meeting you, I wish none of us had to go through all this crap, not only the cancer but all the emotional stuff that it envokes, everyone copes differently, and you just keep bouncing back....
(((((((((((((((( hugs))))))))))))))))
Liz x
Good for you Carol. Enjoy Leicester! Caroline XX
I know what they say about big noses! Is it true? That's why mine is so small. Nose that is. Well you certainly know where you are going with Kev but remember you are not alone............
Another song for you - Good as Gold - Stupid as mud "Carry on regardless..." could be your song.
Hope the chemo isn't hammering you too much.
Keep smiling
love
Drew
X
Hi Carol - I read your earlier posts regarding your relationship with Kev - always hard when a relationship breaks up, even if it's not a particularly positive one. It's obvious you are a strong woman, but no-one is 100% strong 100% of the time - and you will have doubts I think - but pretty sure you'll do just fine without him if that's what happens.
Wishing you all good luck and strength, lots of love Jeanie x
hi Carol,
I cannot believe that a man with his family health history & your condition is still smoking. Perhaps he needs a hammer & chisel to see how life is. In my ( lmited) experience we often need to lay it on the line when we need physical & or emotional help. Save most of your amazing powers for yourself to go to the gathering of real friends but leave him fully aware of your true feelings. Very few guys have empathy. It is a relief to hear this chemo is o.k. so far. we are all willing you well. love camio
way to go Kezzerbird..stick to him!!! lol xx
ps. bramble jelly, yummy
Good for you Carol, such a positive note to start the weekend.
Best wishes, Christine xx
Yes Carol we will all be there waiting for your arrival (Thats if you don't get there first) And we will line up to give our mate the biggest hugs you could wish to have! Brings some of that yummy sounding bramble jelly with you P L E A S E!!!!!
Keep that anger in you and aim it at your Big C. Splat the damn thing to kingdom come. (No not Kev). Take care dearest friend Love Julie X
Viva fiesta Leicester YIPPEE! X
Have a wicked time in leicester Carol, enjoy the jelly,Best wishes Sue xxx