Julie Ryan's blog

Please help me - told on Monday my husband has 1 year to live due to oesophageal cancer spread to lungs.  Told yesterday that my mum has 6 months to live (we and she thought she was healthy last week) due to bone, brain, breast cancers. 

Hey all - Had an amazing 10 days in Italy (Lake Garda). Allowed ourselves only one day of talking about the BIG C whilst there, covered lots of things including the difficult subjects i.e. what to do when he gets 'proper poorly', his funeral and life for our family post-cancer. I really needed to do this as my mind and dreams had been racing recently and I was beginning to get 'panicky' that I would not be able to forfil…

Sad - Can anyone give please pass on their advice/experience re how to stop feeling sad in happy times? Every bloody (are we allowed to say that?!) happy moment, experience, sight or feeling is tinged with sadness for both of us. We so want to live life here and now in the land of the living BUT how do we block the section of our brains that insists on chucking a sad thought in at a happy moment?!!! Its stopping us…

First ... a message to those who answered my cry. To Sue, Julie, Angela, Tantan, Kitty, T, Maralyn and Ann - This is a 'thank-you' note for posting me such loving, caring, helpful and hopeful messages at a time when I was full of despair. Your wise and uplifting words brought tears to my eyes and helped to get me back on the 'hope train' (I managed to board it, this afternoon). Thank-you. David now has an appointment…

Hey - SO, David went for his CT today to inform his tatoo markings for radiotherapy just approved by Army hierarchy here in Germany. SO, Dr told us from results no radiotherapy as he now has 10 mestastisis in his lungs (only 6 weeks post oesophagectomy). So, urgent medical repatriation to UK next step. SO, our lives turned upside down and inside out yet again. SO, know the statistics and fear the inevitable, SO have…