I have just been diagnosed with breast cancer, well in fact just 5 long whole days ago. I am not sure how I am feeling as it is all still quite surreal i am numb. I think i may have lost touch with reality or in total denial.......................
Before i know it i will be going through a mastectomy in the next two weeks, i want the slice and dice to be over, i want the chemo now! I want to cry, shout scream and ask the…
At the risk of being a moaning boring old dragon, I am now 7 long days since diagnosis, i know its a short time in the normal world, in my world at the mo its a long long time. how selfish I am to want the time to fly by, how selfish i am to sit here moaning and groaning instead of getting my act together.
I am truly struggling with all of the gaps inbetween each visit to the consultant, appts for scan appts for biopsy…
Well its MRi day tomorrow and although i am relieved its here I am a scaredy cat too. I am imagining all kinds of horrors too ridiculous to mention in fact. All of a sudden I have become an expert and know in advance what they will say!!!! Wont know any of that until Friday and its agonising. I know that i have many many hurdles to overcome and in the scheme of things this is a relative small hurdle. ( i was rubbish at…
The MRI was a daunting experience,or was i just being a pathetic wimp.......... I was frightened, anxious, nervous and get this i cried afterwards. (get a grip woman) Not even my hot chocolate in the hospital cafe could console me.
The sounds of that machine will stay with me forever, and as soon as i went into it i started losing my breath, i tried to keep counting slowly and breathing properly. No way was i going to…
Saw my consultant today, he went over everything again from when i first saw him. I decided he had forgotten who i was and didnt remember any of our previous consultation. The bit i really wanted to know i had to remind him about.............................. did the MRI show any cancer in my lymph nodes?
O yes he said i almost forgot that, it was negative, i breathed a sigh of relief although the tumors are much bigger…
