Search this site
Please login to your my.Macmillan account.
If you currently have an Online Community account, you will be asked to create a my.Macmillan account the next time you try to login.
Don’t have an account? Create one now.
What is my.Macmillan?
I was right , i just wish i was wrong, sometime to much knowledge is not helpful, im talking time scale, but as family and children dont know im not going to say on here, but its not long, so all eventualities covered for if children cant cope , everything in place for my hubby , but if im honest what about me, im fine with all practicalities but it keeps hitting me in waves , i went shopping today put new cd on as i do in car really loud, it was madonnas new cd and it hit me, all these songs were when we first got together ,i couldnt listen to very many songs or i couldnt see where i was driving, i am sleeping which also worries me, but this is what hubby wants, as is still worrying about me, bless him and no he doesnt know time scale either, but he knows how poorly he is, but every time he even coughs i just fly out of bed, it would be funny if it wasnt so serious,
He is also struggling mentally with his brain mets, ive not told him just pretend its me mumbling ect when he cant hear me properly , i just dont want to hurt him, or anyone else, macmillan nurse knows though, i cried on her shoulder yesterday , i also woke up crying in my sleep which was horrible ,
INLAWS dont even mention them , no i havent told them and dont intend to, they are hear daily anyway and i couldnt even give hubby a kiss when i got home as they wouldnt move from their seats for that, well next time i will not be moving from by his side for them and yes like the kind person i am i move every time and let them have their space, but if they cant even let me kiss him well they can go jump, must go as needed if time i will finish this tommorow xxx
So very sorry Jenni, not much help i know, words seem so flat at a time like this. But i am thinking of you and your sorrow, i know you will find the strength some how to get you both thru this rotten time.
With Love LUCYLEE. XXXX
Jenni - been following your blogs and as lucylee says words seem so inadequate except to confirm that I (& I'm sure many others are here for you). To me you are amazing and you have an inner strength that will carry you through.
Love, Jewels x
Hi Jenni
Don't know what to say except spend as much quality time as you can with your hubby. Cuddles and kisses are so soothing and are good for the soul. I wish you lots of strength to get through this.
Take care
Angela xxxx
Hold his hand and treasure every precious moment. Be totally selfish now and keep your place right by him.
Love and strength to you Jenni.
Grace X
(((((jenni))))
Like Grace says your place is right by him. Be firm, i know its hard when you feel so anxious and worried...but hes YOUR hubby, your soulmate and no one can come between you.This is your time.
keep strong together
love scarlet xxxx
Precious moments. Hold him, talk to him. be together. Lots of love. x
Strength will come from the love you so obviously have for each other, you've always put others before yourself, now it's time for you to put yourself first, Ju chose to spend his life with you at his side, hold onto him hun, don't let anyone push you aside.
Love M. XX
As everyone just hold to him and be there.
I am thinking of you
Love and hugs Stacey xxxx
jenni, just do what your heart tells you, hold him and tell him how much you love him as if he didn't know already. You are an amazing lady and I am thinking of you and your family.
Denise. xx
HI , NEW TO SITE JUST WANT TO SAY THAT YOU ARE SO BRAVE ... MY BROTHER AS JUST BEEN DIAGNOSED TERMINAL WITH BRAIN TUMOURS AND UNKNOWN PRIMARY CANCER....CANT BEGIN TO UNDERSTAND HOW YOU ARE FEELING GOING THROUGH THIS WITH THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE .... MY HEART GOES OUT TO YOU XXXX
Thinking of you, and your children. XX
Just wanted to say I am so sorry about your dear husband. Thank-you for your kindness by responding to my first blog you are truly amazing given what you are going through. I know grief is so so tough, it will come in waves and you will have good and bad times. Just take one moment at a time and be kind to yourself as for the outlaws nick name I use for my inlaws move them out of the way and be near your husband and say all the things you want to him.
I have just started my journey god has it been tough. On New Year's eve found out mum had tumour on spine in bad place. Flew back to Ireland she underwent major surgery not sure if she would survive or walk. Then got her over to England to be near her family and got her into the Marsden. She started her intensive treatment to-day will go up and see her every day. Her cancer has consumed me and I have a husband and 5 year old son to consider. Grief is a very individual experience it can be a lonely place. One thing I have learn't is not to shut people out let out your feelings and talk.
My heart goes out to you and your family. In my thoughts and prays
Fi xxx