My darling husband passed away on Sunday 1st August. He fought so very hard right up until the bitter end.. I feel so numb just do not know what to do. He was the most wonderful husband and father that anyone could wish for. Our lives will never ever be the same, my very best friend is not here any more. I feel so lost, people say stay strong for all the children. I shall try my utmost for them but other than that I feel…
I have not been on here for so long, but need to write my thoughts down. I shall probably waffle on, my darling husband is so ill now and I am losing him. Feel so bloody angry, helpless, sad it really seems to be sinking in now. What will we do without him, cannot not imagine my life or my childrens lives without him. Our son Charlie, such a fantastic runner, Bobbie was his coach, he is letting it all go cannot focus…
My husband had the whipples op New Years eve 2008, followed by chemo, 6 mnths worth and then they decided to give hime radiotherapy. He was supposed to have 5 wks of this but was in so much pain after just 2 lots that they stopped this after his 5th amount, but he also ended up in hospital for 9days in such terrible pain and was very unwell. They put him on morphine patches to help deal with the pain when he came home…
I feel everything is building up in me and I am going to explode. I have gone from being a person who I thought was quite a chilled and relaxed person. Did not use to lose temper with people, but oh how I have changed, what is happening to me. Bob was taken back into hospital on the 12th Dec, in excruciating pain, and is still there. So not a great Christmas. Christmas eve so strange him not being here, I did not stop…
At last Bobbie has had MRI Scan and CT Scan yesterday, to see if any damage has been done from the radiotherapy overdose. Now all we have to do is wait for results on the 24th Nov. He should not have to be going through this, has lost all his confidence in the hospital, don't blame him. Thank goodness for PALS at the hospital, if it wasn't for them I think we would still be waiting for scans to be done. Just got to try…
