Alison..C's blog

  • Buying Time

    FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Just started Chemo, hopefully to buy a bit of time with my kids.

    Buying Time
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    Is this it?
    The big T?
    The fight slowed down to
    Buying time.

    Is this it?
    Just more time for family?
    More time to explore
    Who you are?

    Is this it?
    Keeping things normal
    As far we we can make
    Things last.

    Is this it?
    Or can we create
    Some legacy
    Out of the time remaining?

    Is this it?
    Or is it the memories
    that we leave behind.

  • Palliative Care

    FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Some thoughts when I heard the words "palliative treatment" and "palliative care team" after I got spinal mets -

    Palliative care

    The start of the end?
    No more hope?
    The end of the pretend.
    Just guidance to the finishing line.

    Some honesty and kindness.
    The nicest of the nurses,
    And support in all things I didn’t realise I needed.

    Honesty with myself, with others.
    An outpouring of kindness from friends…

  • This thing within me

    FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Another poemy thing. A bit negative I'm afraid.

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    This thing within me,
    Lurking, silent, hidden;
    Waiting, undetectably.

    This thing within me,
    Growing, spreading, changing;
    Revealing itself, unexpectedly.

    This thing within me,
    Cut out, removed, analysed;
    Weakened, temporarily.

    This thing within me,
    Lurking again, hidden;
    Waiting, as we wait fearfully. 

  • 20 years

    FormerMember
    FormerMember

    It's now 20 years since I was diagnosed with Malignant Melanoma. I went to my GP after my partner pointed out a changing mole on my shoulder, and was referred quickly to the pigmented lesion clinic. The suspect mole was removed, and two weeks later I found out it was Melanoma. I was 25.

    Luckily it was a thin one, so I just needed further surgery to remove more skin, and follow-up appointments for three years.  I got…

  • Life

    FormerMember
    FormerMember

    I was wondering what CD to take for my MRI scan, and chose Melissa Etheridge. Here's the lyrics of her best cancer surviver song, in case anyone hasn't heard it. The music is great too.

    I Run for Life (Melissa Etheridge)

    It's been years since they told her about it
    The darkness her body possessed
    And the scars are still there in the mirror
    Everyday that she gets herself dressed
    Though the pain is miles and miles…